I've found a friend who died for me

woke up on 30th of dec to find zhao voice sore.. bad la.. how to cheer for orientation!!?? chatted wif caixiang online den decided to cut hair wif him.. his hair is so cool but zhao kinda weird.. -___- haha.. went to sch for council stuff.. preparing for orientation.. nothing interesting.. took a cab after tat wif xin n cj to meet ying den go xin hse for tuition.. ying was abit sick n down.. get well soon ya.. the tutor came, looked nerd sia.. but teached veri well.. clear n gd.. went to bugis after tat to hav clan outing.. all ogls turned up except jiaxin.. sianz.. still the turnout was veri gd!!! went pastamania.. super fun.. den we chatted in some stupid stuffy stairway whic affected everyone mood badly.. got abit arguement.. den went to buy clan items.. arguement got worst over the decision to buy clan shorts.. den at tis time zhao came into the pic to help out.. tis wad he said: " hey guys.. i tink we shouldt argue anymore.. its not worth our time the much.. how we dressed or looked doesnt matter.. most important is tat we stary united n show the j1 wad true unity bonding all abt.. tink we should forget every u
unhappy stuff tonite.. "

den everyone stay quiet n agreed.. true bond outshine cool funky attire.. den we had a cheer in the middle of the street.. haha so enthu lor.. we dismissed but still msging encouraging msg around.. feel gd.. get to noe one another better liao n got closer.. feels relai great.. nootka u rox man!!! den met up wif xin cj n mel.. guess wad!!! they got me a cool zinc bag.. thx to u too ying.. happy ending for everyting haha.. luv ya all (:

woke up on 27th of dec.. haha ogl camp!!! super excited.. haha.. went to sch from xin hse.. den one o'clock arrived.. ogls started cuming in.. got jiaxin, songhoe, caixiang, jieyi, marilynn, christine, yonghao, yvonne, yuansiao n den shahrin came late -___-!! had some ice breaker games.. quite a poor start.. den many other activities like mass dance.. bonded closer slowly.. everyone still veri quiet.. next dae, nothing much again in the morning.. was having college tour den grace arrived.. haha nootka completed.. (: den in the afternoon everyone started to hype up.. great interaction time.. at nite, we practised our clan items n cheers.. we always cum up wif lots of cheers, but olso always forget them.. sure remb the food cheer, coz i tink we pissed off other clans lor.. haha.. had tons of fun again.. den zhao gathered them together in the concourse to hav a debriefing cum acknowledgement session.. turn out to b super great.. bond even better.. den becoz of the dumb exco meeting hav to interrupt the fun.. joined back wif noots, n feeling tired.. haha can u believe it? they were dancing in the concourse.. noot noot noot.. den they sat on the concourse floor.. started chatting.. i took a rest n nap.. at the same time, caixiang had a SUPER cramp.. abt 4 in a row.. haha so funny.. the nite was great lor..

woke up on 29th of dec.. gee last dae of camp.. everyone was sian n down except nootka surfers.. we were in charge of breadfast n we dance in the canteen lor.. super enthu.. so GREAT to hav u guys.. im proud of u all.. den had fun in mpr3.. was lyk waging a war wif trivor (clan1, su's clan) they rox too (of coz la, su's ma) veri fun.. den end camp.. took a few pics.. screamed n shouted.. woohoo!! den all ogls dismissed.. but the nootka surfers choose to stay behind so tat zhao can join them for luch together.. so nice.. tried to rush the council meeting to end early.. weee!!! went to lot1 food court.. great fun so noisy lor.. hehe.. precious moments.. went home after tat.. didt do anyting much den slp... tired

a long week had past again.. but tis time in a veri meaningful way.. a long list to rite -__- still remb on 26th of dec, i went for clan outing cum lunch.. waited at boonlay mrt station wif joseph n john.. at 12pm(the meeting time), clan 4 ppl started cuming in.. i was like so disappoint n nervous, wonderinf if they cuming.. den 1st saw jieyi.. 1st ogl from nootka.. den yuansiao, songhoe.. we went to pizzahut to eat.. things progress slowly la.. bits of tolks n intro.. den marilynn cum.. still nothing much.. den shahrin cum.. oh man he rox!! brought up the mood.. chatted many stuff den walked around to find clan stuffs.. couldt find much den decided to go bugis.. none of the gals joined.. me shahrin songhoe yuansiao went instead.. check up many stuffs, like shades n beads etc.. had a fun time.. after we left, i rushed to xin hse to meet xin ying n cj.. they waited for me so long.. paisae.. went for dinner n enjoy great food.. brought sugarcane stick.. wanted to chew intitally but forget after tat.. haiz.. den we went b to xin hse.. she wanted to exchage presents after showering.. wa.. she go to her closet to get her clothes but my presents is in the way.. so she took up n see cj present n still throw hers n ying presents to ying.. diao.. den ying olso take a peep.. -___- can u believe it??!! haha.. end up we had present exchange 1st instead.. got a wonderful wallet form ying n xin n a interesting pen from cj.. haha.. took shower den slp in xin room.. had tons of fun.. slp late.. (:

chatted wif her whole nite.. feeling darn great but olso wif a mix of fear.. wad if she find out?hmmm.. i will juz hav to take one step at a time.. all i could do i to see her from far.. still i truly enjoy tis session though christmas wasn tat exciting n interesting tis yr..

woke up at edmund hse den walked to church wif him n hz.. christmas morning was indeed cool.. well, went to prata shop agin wif hz.. i tink i realli broke liao.. only can affort prata for the rest of my meal Xp as normal, the service started.. but tis time, wif specical reasons.. it is the opening ceremony for the hse tat the church worked so hard to built it.. all those fund-rasing acts.. i will never forget.. olso, terrence n several other friendz ar getting baptise today.. bet it means alot to them tis day.. haha.. it means tat terrence has to start being holy from today onward

went to zhuomin n caleb church in the nite.. invited by them.. a veri nice christmas performance put up by them, but still i prefer the previous mega stage drama put up by our church.. reason: i am the lead actor. oops!!

went home after tat to pack my stuff for the cuming ogl camp.. has high expectation to it.. hopefully the councilors wun spoil the whole ting.. troublemakers.. haha, before going to the camp, i will be having clan outing today.. hopefully turnout is great.. den celebrate belated christmas wif ying, xin n cj.. will be a fun day... but will i be able to catch wif all of them?

tis yr christmas is a veri boring one.. nothing much interesting has happen todae..woke up as normal.. played game in the morning.. went church to rehearse for christmas mc stuff fot the nite.. crap my way through during the christmas programme.. went prata shop to eat mutton murturbak.. now at friend's home blogging abt today..

looking forward to meet my clanmates tis monday.. n of coz the hi-5 peez too.. the present exchanging tingy is making me feeling excited.. olso i had prepared a gift for every of my clanmates.. hope they like it.. coz they coz a BOMB!!!..

hmmm... tis christmas is pretty special to me in a way.. got to noe her better.. hehe.. veri happy (: looking forward to meet her... happy happy

spent huge bucks for christmas todae.. actually tis is the 1st time tat i spend so munch for christmas presents.. used the 100 bucks tat my mum gave me as a subsitute for christmas present to buy as the christmas gifts.. now really broke liao.. still i dun regret abt tat coz it is reali spent in a gd wae.. got a few stuff for hi-5.. we ar actually having a present exchange tingy on tis cuming mon.. i bet everyone loking forward to it.. haha.. xin n ying will definitely luv their presents.. (: also got gifts for my clan ppl, both ogls n councilors.. spent 40 bucks on them.. haiz.. but if tis gift could allow them to be happy n unite in any way, i wounldt mine..

join my ex-pri sch gathering todae.. all ar the same as ever.. seems tat i change so much over the years.. still remember tat dere in a guy in the grp darn irritating.. tolk non-stop.. nothing special n interesting abt tis gathering, so i left early..

met many ppl today while shopping for gifts.. xin, dasen, karmun, lynn etc.. hmmm.. indeed a tough day.. tire liao.. tinking of u (:

went home from bugis yesterdae after shopping wif cj n xin.. didt get anyting partly becoz didt bring $$$ n dun hav the tings i wanna get.. took a long buz journey back home.. kept drooling on the buz.. veri paisae -__- reached home n chatted wif cj n her.. got a veri mixed feeling all along..

thx tat cj was dere to make me feel better at tat moment.. i was already on the verge of breakind down wif the intense n hectic lifestyle im currently having.. we chatted pretty long.. from 12 plus to 3 am i tink.. haha got someone to confide in finally.. really thx u cj.. u ar really the best pal i could ever wish to hav in life.. never turn to the wrong guy 11 months ago..

spent the whole day worrying abt orientation n ogl camp stuff.. wonder if the ogls n i could working n clickz together.. wished su n i were still in the same clan as orientation2.. thought abt the pylos ppl too.. had a great time wif u ppl.. too bad ppl cum n go in life.. the ogls i had seem pretty unenthu.. tis worry me badly.. hopefully the turnout rate for the gathering tis cuming mon will be fine..

haven got the hi-5 x-mas presents.. running out of time n no $$$.. i hav to start tinking now.. had in mind wad to get for ying liao.. as for cj, xin n mel, i still haven reali thought of wad to get for them.. will have to crack tons of tough nuts for tat..

tinking of her again.. going crazy liao.. still hav to be calm.. ppl ar watching me..

hav been a long week.. like usual, spent most of the time wif council duty.. hav to coop wif both orientation n openhouse duty at the same time though openhse is abt to finish.. now i am really sick n tired of student council.. ever endless duties n still hav to work wif unreasonable ppl.. ok la, its not tat the whole council ar bad.. juz tat im realli starting to feel numb abt council liao...

on tue, council to cum sch in the morning to prepare for orientation n the ogl camp.. but before tat, the excos hav to take pics for next yr council board.. met the new principal.. pretty cool n hip.. looking forward to work wif her.. did many ting for prep dae.. learn new dance, abit of cheer n songs.. tis n tat.. disappointed wif wad the council displayed when learning dance n doing serious work.. they juz kept chatting among themselve n ignore others instruction.. no wonder dere bound to b someone outdere anti-council.. only if they reali change tis attitude, den it will improve.. but i believe it wun happen in 6th council..

went out to meet ying with me cj lixin n mel at tat nite.. hav lots of fun.. slurping game.. dumb indeed.. i guess we hardly will ever find much time to get together to play n enjoy like tat after sch reopens.. still we can make ting fun if we hold on together...

todae, we went xin hse todae to study.. haha.. laugh our heads off.. had a great time though even we end up didt study much.. at least we get to spend more time wif ying.. i believe tat we let her down in many manys n i reali veri sry to u ying.. we always neglect u becos of our council stuffs.. we let u down.. so sry.. yet on tat nite we spend time together in starbuck, i felt so ashame n guilty of myself.. forgive me ying..

back to blogging to pen my feeling down.. tire i am, giving up im unsure.. still i believe tat wif God n great pals around, dere will always still be glimering hope for a better tml...

another boring day wifout much progress.. feeling blue n nothing much happened todae.. busy wif openhouse stuff.. so much ting to do, but so little time.. tink of it, kinda regretted joining council liao.. seems to lose the purpose of joining it.. wad we swore hard to work for during investiture has becum meaningless n seems impossible to achieve.. mayb im too pessimistic.. or mayb my passion for council hav burnout after working so intense for months.. tinking how helpless i am during tat time when CCAs were suggested to b disbanded n unable to stand out to fight for my fellow friendz juz becoz not to tarnish the name of council has left me feeling so guilty even until now.. wonder if i could still work on wif great passion n enthu in future wif council endless duties n responsibilities..

thought of her again.. had been tinking alot for the past few daes since i came back from the council cum class chalet.. wad lixin said made alot of sense, but i juz dun wanna tink n believe.. juz in case of harbouring too much high hopes.. no matter wad, all i could reali do is to stand from a distance n look at her.. broken heart..

here ar some of the wonderful memories left by my class, 05s17.. didt reali hav any council n hi-5 one though (cos cam no bat liao)

05s17... u ppl ar wonderful n great.. wonder if we will still stay united n together as a class next yr...

05s17 again... (: kk, the photographer wast great though (if u ar wondering, the photographer is a stranger n wasnt in the pic)

haha... some candid pose we are having.. cool rite? the warriors of the nights!!! pls: didt noe the moon was dere initially... hehe..

hey.. not suppose to peep at others while we ar doing our business converencing ma...

haiz... hav been reali busy.. so tired no time to rest.. juz came b form council n class retreat.. hav to go for both lor.. cum to n fro.. still, it veri fun n meaning on to me..

from wad i feel, the class chalet didt reali excite me.. its was the council one.. not becos i love the council ppl better or someting.. in fact i feel tat my class ppl were so much better than council 100 times over.. wad attracts me to join council more than class is the the hi-5 ppl.. thay rox my world man..

nothing much in chalet except time spend wif xin, cj, mel n sue.. we went to the changi jetty area in the middle of the nite juz to spend the nite.. at dere, we did many tings tat we normally dun.. screaming madly, singing out loud, chatted everyting under the mood.. tat was the few tings tat kept in my mind.. miss ying too.. wished she was dere den hi-5 will be completed.. haiz.. went back after tat, dammn tired.. still we go changi village for breadfast.. as for the rest wad happen in the dae, i wun sae.. it a nightmare.. didt noe cj, xin n mel missed me so much n waited for whole dae.. so sry n guilty.. well, i felt glag at the same time too as no one in my life so far reali tink n care so much for me.. thx u guys.. u ppl ar great.. (:

the next nite which was the bbq nite, i john n sue rode the bikes to the beach to chat.. we share everyting, from wad troubling us to luv life etc.. the nite was great.. den khalis join us n we lie on the beach n gaze at the moon.. sure its peace.. totally different from the outside world u see.. wished i could get captivated in it.. tinking of her too.. wished tat she could b by my side.. hiaz.. anywae, the 4 of us were reali great pals n i believe tat we hav lots to share in future.. (:

guys.. u ar reali great.. wonder if i will ever get to noe anyone better or even on par wif u ppl.. thx u all..

whoa.. it reali is a long walk for tat week.. straight after back from camp, i went to mei jing's 21st birthdae.. glad to b dere.. her b'dae was held in a chalet in costa sand restort.. veri colourful n vibrant although i do admitted tat the number of ppl dere was quite low(abt 30 i tink) dunno if becos my expectation for a 21st b'dae is too high.. but i definately wan lots of ppl dere for my own.. nvertheless, she kept smiling, i believe is tat God's grace is upon her.. i truly wish her all the best n may God bless her in anywae in future.. btw, tis was also the place where i n my 1st ex, joanne, get to reali noe each other last yr.. it was juz a motivational camp fir the preparation for O lvl, yet it turned out more than juz than.. after the camp we progressed n yar many tings happened.. as expected we broke up eventually.. not her fault though.. she was a great gal.. juz tat we cant get along.. still we ar friend now n im glad for tat..

ok.. as for todae, morning was same as usual.. we went to church for service den sunday sch.. but after tat, our sunday sch class were brought to united square in novena for lunch.. it was ex but the food n variety were great.. another good place to bring a gal dere to date.. :P

went for council external cip straight after lunch.. wanted to go home to collect council tee, but overslept on the train n missed my stop.. hey, i was reali tired.. suffering from lack of sleep.. since i was late, i go went on to meet up wif council ppl wifout my council tee.. n man do i look weird.. everyone wore the red council tee except ME... i was in white.. so like the singapore flag or someting.. anywae the cip ting was a failure to me.. dere was practically NO PPL at the CC.. it ws suppose to b flea market lor.. dumb wae to do a cip.. heck la.. tis week wasnt gd at all from start anywae.. veri tired now.. need sleep.. tml got class chalet n council retreat on the dae after tat.. longer journey indeed!!! nite~

arrived home at abt 7am on the 6th of dec.. long nite wifout much sleeping.. played games until abt 10am.. den left home for a singapore wide church camp.. tiring indeed.. met the fellowship ppl at bouna visa mrt (dunno howz to spell).. hav new friends to, mingjie n caixiang.. fun ppl indeed.. went to nus' hostel, which is prince george residence.. thought the camp going to b great, but end up disappointed.. dere were veri little interactipn wif other churches(which i hoped for) n the pastors shut me off instantly.. can u imagine how would it be when the pastor shouted into the mike when he preached n u hav to sit dere whole whole one n half hr??? deaf u will be..

practically slept through almost every session when the pastor spoke.. n he was involved in the youth fellowship in church.. haiz.. he dun understands youth nowdays.. tolk to us as if we were kids.. also except us to sign a covenant wif God stating rules like "i will not have any intimate actions wif my gal friend, including holding her hands"... in the end i signed it, wifout noeing the rules coz i slept when the pastor was going through the rules n conditions.. so i tink it was reali counted..

our church sent the most ppl to the camp(abt 30 ppl).. also, most ppl from our church fell sick too.. abt 3 admitted to hospital.. 1 was injurded during game time n required immediate medical aid.. we went to look for medic n when we finally found, the medic was taking her sweet time to walk over.. hey, her life was in danger n u can still stop along the way to joke wif ur friend? anywae i didt like the whole camp n was terribly disappointed..

i also noe some ppl from other churchs, n like us, they were expecting to interact wif others too.. luckily we initated 1st n we get to interact.. they were ppl from a church from ang mo kiow(forgot the name liao, paisae..) they ar so cool funky n fun grp of ppl.. many of them looked so young althought some were in jc n university.. looking forward to noe them better n improve the relationship between the two churchs.. (:

hav been away for so long... lots of stuffs happened at tis time too... not much changes to my blog though..

hmmm... let starts on the 5th of dec.. GRADNITE!!! it was a success i tink... we plan for the event quite some time.. all thx to the hardwork of the gradnite committee (thx guys) we met at orchard mrt at abt 10am on tat dae itself and went to the meritus mandarin hotel (the place which gradnite was held) ate lunch, briefed by miss teo, preparation n stuffs... ppl start cuming in as early as 5.30pm although the pre-dinner event is suppose to start at abt 6... to tell the truth, tis is the 1st time i attended a gradnite.. sec sch didt held one (stingy) gee... gals reali do dressed up themselve on tis event.. as for guys, they still look the same to me.. maybe due to their limited attire.. (who wears singlet to gradnite??) the event started at abt 7.30pm.. hard time ushering ppl in.. the mc was great, his name is rico, a deejay for a radio station.. programme were smooth except for tat sussie wong.. dun noe wad she was trying to do lor.. anywae, the dae ended up high for everyone except us (we got lot to clean) thx u guys (gradnite com) wifout u ppl, tis event wun b tat great n fun in the process.. thx esp to joseph(for helping me all the wae), chenjie(support huh..), khalis(ur video rox man!!! told ya u can be trusted..), mel for being understanding n helpful, lixin for luckydraw, jieshi for publicity, serence for ticketing, teckming n jensen for entertainment, fiona n yulun for minutes n finance, joshua for promking n queen stuff, abraham for doorgift.. also to the councilors tat help out n miss teo for her guidance.. let work together to create a superb gradnite for ourselve next yr!! went to lanshop after tat wif joseph joshua yulun teckming n abraham to play for the rest of the nite till 3am.. den wander around until we reached a 24hr mac n slept inside.. went home after tat but my dae dun juz stop at tat...