Friday, June 30, 2006

there she goes...

he stood there as she walked by, so close yet so far... tormented, ravaged..

there she goes... there she goes again...


Hidden in a Lonely Corner praised Jesus at 6/30/2006 09:11:00 am

Sunday, June 25, 2006

oh well..

hazel back.. 2 more dae to resume back to mid-yr exam.. empty wallet.. sexy phone (by lixin).. unstable family.. frustrated ,vexed, confused thoughts.. wan to learn piano n continue learning guitar.. shaken faith.. fetish for subway..

so much to do, so little time..


Hidden in a Lonely Corner praised Jesus at 6/25/2006 09:58:00 pm

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

world wifout strangers?? rubbish

could't fall aslp so tink tat i should update my blog fer now.. same old worries, revision for mid-yr not ready yet.. abt 1 more week to go n the papers ar cuming in.. gp was horrible.. guess not going to do veri well for tis exam..

phone broke down too.. blame myself for throwing it around.. now hav to switch to the LG (Life's gay by xin) phone which is not veri user-friendly.. but dun tink im gonna use tis fer long.. eying on the nokia n91.. pretty cool.. juz where to get the money??

hav been drawing money from my bank after applying for the atm last month.. lacking of discipline over money issue.. tinking of canceling the atm card..

yesterdae was father's dae.. everyone turned up for the celebration wif my grandfather.. i guess tis "family" is bonded by my grandfather now.. once he is gone, i bet tat everyone will go their wae.. im fine wif it anyway.. i never like my uncles in the 1st place.. they ar bastards tat throw my grandfather around n refusing responsiblility to take care of him as sons.. instead, the daughters' family ar doing the job.. im not trying to sae tat its not our responsibility to take care of him.. juz tat i felt tat it was not fair.. all my grandfather wans is to spend some quality time wif his "sons".. yet, one by one came by wif absurb excuses to push the responsibility.. one is a ex-gambler tat almost ended up wif a broken marriage.. another one wif another wife.. cant take it.. dun understand why my parents can put up wif it.. even my "aunty in-law" is an ass.. keep boasting how wonderful he was.. now my grandfather is suffering from depression, thanx to all of them.. i wun bother to acknowledge them once my grandfather is gone..

im not going to go down wifout a fight.. the more u wan to suppress, the more i will retailate.. i will show u who is the real loser out dere.. one by one.. time to show the assertive side of me...


Hidden in a Lonely Corner praised Jesus at 6/20/2006 12:49:00 am

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Time waits for no one..

times flies quickly.. n 1 week has passed.. pretty screwed up coz still got so much haven finish study.. well, tink im gonna go b to college to study almost everydae.. mayb tis is the best wae to stay focus..

a veri happening week.. 1st on 4th of june.. nootka ogl outing.. quite a high number turn up for the gathering despite orientation period is long over.. guess the bond we built up over the dec holidae didt vanish wif the spirit n mood of orientation.. 12 out of 17 supposed to turn up one.. but end up me, joseph, yixin, grace, marilynn, jiaxin, yuanxiao, caixiang, shahrin, jieyi turn up.. yonghao got high fever tat dae, songhoe got family prob, christine juz came b from pre-u sem while yvonne mia for a veri long time.. was long forward to tis outing, until songhoe n yonghao last min msg me tat they not cuming.. somehow demorailsed me ya.. went to al dente to eat, service wasnt as gd as it used to be but food not bad.. had al fungi.. yum.. though everyone sat together, i kinda felt someting is missing among us.. probably the enthu in us.. i dun feel tat energetic as i used to be.. after we left al dente for hagen-das, i was slience for the rest of the night.. i was troubled by the awakwardness among each other, as if im a stranger to them.. n i felt i did pull down the mood of the night.. everyone was like waiting for me to sae someting.. as if im still a clanmaster.. no, im not.. pls dun continue to see me as one.. we ar now friendz.. caixiang: thx for the heart to heart tolk tat night in the toilet.. to tink tat u used to always cum to me to share ur prob.. it turns out tat u were the one listening to me instead tat nite.. marilynn, sharhrin: thx for accompanying me to mac to hav a late supper.. had a gd chat wif ya too..

got council retreat on thur.. turn-out rate for the sentosa outing wasnt at gd.. but still enjoyed myself veri well at the beach.. still could remb i used to cum to the beach last yr at tis period of the yr wif the pylos family.. sentosa did has alot of major changes.. went to costa sand resort at east coast.. new learning exp tat dae.. get to experiment wif in-line skates.. uesd to tink it always same as ice-skating.. but somehow, they ar different in a wae.. still manage to pick it up quickly though.. fell once only tat dae in my palm despite wif the guards on my hands.. cost me dearly for tat.. almost went into the bbq pit too coz cant brake the skates.. phew.. if not roasted zhao.. veri fun dae too..

today.. went dancing for the summerdance fit ting.. went to sch early at 10am.. training till 12.. den lunch.. den we change n go to somewhere outside indoor stadium to perform.. veri disappointed wif the poor turn-out rate.. hav to admit.. program is veri boring.. the dae we were performing is dae 1.. got a bad feeling tat we where dere juz to fill up the empty dae 1 slots.. like decoys.. but wateva.. screwed up my dancing too.. the stage was slippery n i slip n miss a step.. den my injured hand due to the skating crash didt allow me to dance veri smoothly too coz i hav to freeze wif my hands.. veri painful but hav to endure.. went to subway to hav dinner n den to the basement under espanade to watch n learn some stuffs from the ppl breaking dere.. tink we learned quite alot n definately improving the dance step for the 9th of july performance at sentosa.. long wae to go..

i realised im some time surrounded by irritating ppl.. their presense dere doesnt help to improve the situation.. den their actions pissed me off.. im starting not to reserve my skeptical thoughts for such ppl in future..


Hidden in a Lonely Corner praised Jesus at 6/11/2006 12:06:00 am

Thursday, June 01, 2006

cant understand

y muz u ppl keep saying tat we ar not doing anyting?? i simply dun understand.. its not like we didt contribute anyting to the college.. yes, sometimes even i myself hav to agree tat we do seem slack n mis-behave.. but dere ar times tat we need rest too.. n it seems to happen tat u ppl saw tis side of us most of the time..

its not tat we cant accept criticism or so, in fact, we will be more than glad to sit down n listen to them.. but wad? all we received so far ar juz negative comments.. yes, dere ar pioneers tat do support us, or at least make contructive comments abt us.. as in pin-point exactly where our fault or so.. wad the point making a big fuss by juz saying "sc sucks" or redundant.. nothing is going to change for the better by such comments, instead more misunderstandings n unhappiness will be kept within.. i hav friendz tat do not reali like sc to the core, but at least they do show some minimal form of respect by voicing out our errors politely.. we ar 17/18 yr old adults, should its time we start to tolk rationally??

wateva the case, in my term throughout council, i noe many ppl of different background, characters etc, n i do not hav anyone seriously anti-sc to the core.. if u condsider the pioneers not cheering wif us during the rugby finals as a fine example of anti-council, so be it.. no matter wad, they will still be ppl cheering wif us for the rugby.. i dun understand y muz the anti-council sentiments muz be brought from pj to home team academy n be presented in front of the jj, sa, rj n even our fellow pioneers.. i dun feel anyting pround by doing tat.. isnt the intention to cum down all the wae juz to support the rugby?? tat probably y the cheering culture never started in pj all along..

i muz sae tat though the negative comments n strong criticism ar mentioned, tis do implies tat dere ar or many pioneers ar not reached out by us.. guess becox we ar unable to cater to the whole college.. im not saeing tat the college cannot do wifout us, in fact the hse exco ar doing a gd job now.. but time is needed to build up college spirit n culture.. wifout tat, i personally find it hard to be attached to pj, let alone pioneer students to support sc..

we ar not expecting the sudden amount of support thrown to us by the college, im juz hope tat we can practise mutual respect among one another.. if one has a heart filled wif hatrated toward others, no matter how much the other party does toward u will definately seem as redundant.. yes, tis do happen in me too toward my frienz too n im practicing hard to control myself from tinking in tis wae..

its olso saddening to hear tat sc was the last choice among us when its cum to choosing cca, tat y the qualities ar so bad or so.. but to tell u, many of us hav our own individual ccas b4 entering council.. dere ar councilors who were in pj sports where some made it into sch team, some ar invited to join the performing art ccas, some were in clubs like odac or so, dere ar even a few tat hav their own external ccas like ncc or fencing.. im not saeing tat we regret joing council or so, but all these ccas above ar interesting n enriching.. who would wan to give them up for council?? yar rite, for better testimonial.. if working for juz a better testimonial would be the only push factor sufficient enough to help us endure the past one yr of hardship n stress, i bet council would hav cease to exist few months after investiture..

to tell the truth, i was invited to join choir after orientation becoz i used to be president of choir in my sec sch.. i turned it down almost instantly.. i got into odac after jae orientation n i seriously enjoyed myself wif the fellow odacians, but still the week b4 the induction camp tat im definately a true odacian, i pulled out.. not becoz im freaking out or cant take the hardship of odac trainning.. in fact i luv treking n hiking, but i noe tat is not wad i wan for the rest of my jc life in pj.. i was too offered the post of hse exco, but yar, turn down again.. here, u can see tat i was offered abundant of opportunities tat i could enjoy in many aspects than council.. not tat testimonial is going to be SOOO MUCH MORE attractive, but the experiences tat i received was much more enriching.. i get to noe friendz not only in choir, odac or hse exco, but even more like netball, touch rugby, volleyball, takewondo, humanities club, chinese orchestra, band, sci n tech club, dance, mindsport, art society, chinese cultural society, ava n more.. the circle of frienzs i had is definately much bigger b4 i came into pj..

as for cheering, will u hav cum out to cheer for ccas i mentioned above??? though we didt not manage to cheer for every single cca, i bet we ar indeed trying to start a new culture here in pj, the same culture tat rj n sajc ar expriencing now.. do pioneers look forward to enjoy such bonds n friendships?? yes i do.. but if dere is no one to even initiate it, when ar we going to?? ar we going to let every single competition participated by pioneers supported by their cca-mates or fellow classmates for future to cum?? we ar not going to progress anywhere tis wae.. im fine wif the comment tat we didt cheer veri well for the rugby boys match.. tat is one comment tat i do take in n accept.. council doing insufficient during our term, yep i agree.. we hesitatiated alot during our 1st half of ur term n it do cost us dearly.. tat where i guarantee everyone out dere i will do my veri best to mentor the 7th council, n ensure tat they do not commit the same mistakes as we did.. all i need is ur support toward the 7th..

rite now, im focusing on mainly on gradnite com.. i hope tat dae tat i n joseph made the presentation on it manages to impress majority of u ppl.. i dun noe y tis yr response is pretty gd, probably becoz our cohort is bigger tis yr.. no matter wad, im not going to be complacent abt tis n my fellow com-mates will do our veri best to make gradnite a success.. (who would wan to wreck their own gradnite?) i can only promise tat gradnite would be a true success provided tat everyone works together closely.. in a wae, everyone plays a role in the planning stage of gradnite.. no point having the best entertainment com, the best door gifts n lucky draw, the best hotel for gradnite.. the audience, us, plays the biggest role for tis event.. i sincerely wish tat we can enjoy our last moment wif the college-mates together b4 we take off n steer toward our individual goals.. veri soon we will be singing our college song in tears on 29th of nov in swissotel.. hopefully more pioneers will join tis memorable event before gradnite.. now im try to convince rongxiang to join gradnite.. i hope tat fellow pioneers will convince their friendz too join join gradnite if they haven..

i hav been troubled by issues regarding council since i stepped into it.. n i i dun tink i will be able to stop worrying abt it either after i step down.. no matter wad, i wish the 7th the best in wadeva they do..

tml is a veri hectic dae.. hav to go college for math lesson, den gradnite meeting, den break dance practise.. guess my jc life is not going to be simplier for the time being.. seriously worried abt my studies.. still not doing much studying for now..

yesterdae, im disgusted by one of my classmate action.. we were playing bball in college, n there were other friendz dere too.. at one moment of the game, my classmate was pushed n he held grudges abt it.. the game ended up in a short fight among them.. cant understand y ppl cant hold their emotion.. tis classmates im referring to always make fun n is insentive toward others, yet he himself cant tolerate it.. tat probably how human work..

nootka outing tis sun.. going to esplanade to eat.. tink its going to be a gd exp for everyone.. quite some time since we last had a gd gathering.. tis time response is pretty gd too.. 12 out of 17 ar cuming.. will b long b4 we going to gather together.. heard tat og26 ar organising a outing too.. pretty surprised tat they ar still keeping contact wif one another.. kk.. time to go ya.. chaoz..



the veri 1st time nootka gathers together during ogl camp (27th-29th of dec)


Hidden in a Lonely Corner praised Jesus at 6/01/2006 07:53:00 pm

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