I've found a friend who died for me

common test continuing tml.. math n gp papers ar over.. left wif econ n phy.. spent the whole week studying these 2 sub, yet still doesnt feel veri confident abt tml econ essay test.. heck la, juz try my best n see howz my quality so far (though giving for best might still not be enough) the thoughts of me still taking chem came back.. by dropping chem last yr, my ambition to take up chemical engineering n following the footsteps of my father is over.. sometimes wheneva i look at my classmates how they handle their 4 subs, i was veri impressed.. was it becoz i lack of self-dicipline? chem wasnt veri hard actually n i DO like tat sub.. wateva, i will now focus n move toward to my goal of studying bisiness in NUS.. so far, i hav been always tinking tat im suitable for business.. the smart attire i hav to dress in, the important communicaion stressed during business deals wif clients, the many setbacks n failures i hav to face.. gee.. tis reali keep me tinking..

i hav been wondering on someting new.. ar we facing too much stress at our age, even for a teen?? looking back at the acheievements i had, rite from my sec sch life (im a bad boy in pri sch), i held many leadership roles.. class monitor to prefect to councilor.. hse cheerleader to cheerleader ic (hmm, irony isnt it?) choir sectional rap to the 1st male choir chairperson in guangyang sec history (oh, dun bother to ask me to sing.. i lost my ability to do tat since after orientation1) n now, council exco, gradnite in charge n many other more.. the roles of leader ar indeed a tough one (tough i take it quite lightly) im not trying to boast here, but tink of it, many of us get to feel the likes of the society 1st hand.. veri interesting but olso frightening.. politics, backstabbing, hypocritics on n on.. i often see su n excos of councils working veri hard in planning.. guess tat maturity n great deal of responsibility required.. esp when we hav to deal wif studies, duties n social relationships wif friends, family etc.. based on my working experience so far, i realised my style of working.. my performance ties closely wif my feelings, emotions.. wheneva im feeling mad or so, i tend to rush tings on impulse.. n wheneva im neutral or less moody, i could joke around, laugh, smile.. i too prefer working on building relationships before getting tings done.. like the orientation for example: i choose to build on purely relationships before going on to our clan cheer, flag or so.. i tink they agree wif tat ya.. haha, our clan flag wsa painted in 1hr (incomplete, tat y no so colourful) our clan performance was planned in abt 1 hr too? hehe.. n we played the most during ogl camp.. only clan to thon (if spelt rite) the last nite together (: n it reali pays off.. the most united clan.. Nootka, my pride..

yep.. went to sharin's og outing on last fri.. was veri reluctant at 1st, coz need to study (or lazy).. HEY!!! ITS AT EAST COAST U NOE!! yar, in the end, for unknown reason i was at east coast.. dun get fooled by the bbq pit no.. though bbq pit no 17 n 43 seems veri close (43-17=26), they ar in fact abt 1.5km away -____- luckily the large cup of iced milo from mac saved me from ending my journey to bbq pit 43.. phew.. n boy, i was reali impressed wif their og.. they ar still veri united till now.. though not everyone turned up, majority was dere.. get to noe many of the j1s too.. hehe.. out of the many j1s, one tat reali felt me a deep impression is yixian, the Dasen look-alike.. hehe.. interesting.. too bad i noe tis og ppl too late.. had fun all the way to 10pm n yet they were still reluctant to go.. (: yar i bet shahrin n yvvonne ar proud of them..

tink of it, i wonder how will my og be if im a ogl instead of clanmaster? who will i be pair up wif? hmmm.. veri interesting ya.. hehe.. im not sure will my og be as great as those in nootka, but i tink i lack of many tings tat nootka ogls possess: humor, syn-energy, enthu.. mayb i will crap all the way, mayb my partner will do all the job, mayb i might make them cry, mayb they will hate me.. arhh... I WAN TO BE A OGL!!! imagine the wonderful bonds u get to build wif the j1s.. it sort of excites me.. the yearnful looks shined on their faces.. the bes part is the finale of orientation where ur og members came to hug u, some wif tears on their faces, saying the thanks n appreciations they had for u.. hmmm.. no matter wad, i still appreciate the role i played as clanmaster during o1.. aiya, everytime say muz put orientation behind yet still dig n bring it out again.. sianz...

yep yep, back to reality, time to get back to study yar.. after common test i gonna play bball almost everdae.. hopefully the interhse sport competition applies for j2, so my class could join n enjoy the class bonding.. hmmm.. tat all fer now.. cya..

common test started.. guess its no time to fool around, yet im still slacking veri badly.. muz make gd use of my time ya.. haiz.. still veri packed wif duties and responsibilities.. hmmm, when will they end??

orientation2 juz ended.. means tat JAE has officially started.. my role as clan master has already ended long ago.. orientation2 remind me of the fun times i had wif the ogls.. yep, i hope we now look at one another not as clanmaster-ogls relationship, but as a friend.. stood back in sch after the the road run event for orientation2 finale.. road run was horrible.. got stiches while running.. haha.. same for rest of the class guys except zhisen.. so paisae.. the class gals were cheering for me opposite the cannal.. owens is a wonderful hse.. almost everyone cheered n play their part.. a veri promising hse in future..

didt do much for orientation2 finale.. tink that orientation1 is still better though the ogls n o2 members of orientation2 put in alot effort.. dunno y.. juz lack of the groove to make me dance tat nite.. gathered wif the nootka ogls.. yep, had dinner together.. later went to chat wif shahrin n caixiang.. had a gd time.. we were tolking how we were "conned" abt wad jc life all abt.. orientation sure can be veri misleading, esp when it is a gd one.. j1 still expects alot from the j2 ogls after orientation, tinking they can still constantly maintain the same mood presented during orientation itself.. guess tat j1 ogls for orientation2 will understand how we feel.. yep, everyone was asked to pack up and leave after finale, we continue to stay in pj locker area to chit chat wif the ogls.. its seem tat we all prefer few n simple activities compared to heavy n intensive activities.. juz like siting around n chatting can keep us entertained for hrs.. chat till eleven.. i still can see tat the bonds btw the nootka ppl, j1 and j2, still exists.. haha.. we were the only o1 clan tat cheered together during the finale.. good ya..

went to songhoe hse to stay over the nite.. reali enjoyed songhoe n his family's warm treatment.. his mum is veri understanding.. during my stay in his hse, i too realised many tings.. songhoe is truly a veri devoted buddist..though im not a buddist, i can see tat he reali put in his heart into his religon.. unlike me, i felt quite ashamed.. i juz dunno y.. the reglion im following for the past 17 yrs starting to stray from me.. i felt veri lost n helpless.. i dun spend much time in church or wif my church friends.. still, i hav to decide for myslef the road i wan to follow..

had gp n math paper already.. both are quite do-able (i tink) hopefully i will do well for the rest.. tis common test will help me judge my standard for now.. veri soon prelims n A lvl itself will cum.. time is indeed running run.. tinking of A lvl always remind me of gradnite.. still in the process of planning.. confirm is swiss-hotel.. wonder how will the sch response to the change in choice.. all thx to mrs tan' policy of having for full attendance of teachers for gradnite, we cant choose ritz carlton.. but still, after some quiet thoughts over the past few weeks, i start to see her rationale behind her action.. teachers do play a veri big role in our life in jc.. its naturally tat they should be involved in gradenite to celebrate thegraduation of their students.. olso, i realised tat ritz is too ex for many student though many voted it as the preferred choice.. yep, gradenite should be a event where everyone could participate as much as possible, and not to be affected by the money issue.. going to swiss hotel tis wed to take a look at the ballroom.. heard tat the hotel is quite classy.. hopefully it lives up to its expectation..

during tis period of times, i saw many different ppl showing every version of themselves, often ugly.. haha.. no one is perfect ya.. so great deal of tolerance and patience are needed.. kk.. time to end blogging for tis episode.. so stay tuned ya!!!

back from a long break from blogging.. same as ever.. hmm.. much has happen within tis period of time.. not reali tat much la.. probably becoz my clazz had been fun n funky all along..

love my class 05s17 to the core... it is veri easy to identify my class.. juz lookout for the most enthu grp in sch.. definately from my class.. all the happy times we spent in class were great.. the most boring lesson could even be interesting n exciting.. dun noe for wad reason, the guys in our class suddenly becum so united.. last time used to me, gare rern, zhisen n songhoe only ( J4 ) now roy, glenn, rui rong, chin yoong, rong xiang start to join us too ( band of brothers ) haha.. same for the gals too.. surprised tat kailing, sheryl n yen shuang so chatty too.. reali wonderful.. its the best class i could ever ask for :) thkz a lot for creating a huge impact in my life 05s17.. looking forward to hse meeting or so.. haha.. its always our class tat blast the stage away.. BOOM!!! hehe.. ( maybe the guys in our class make great cheerleaders.. oh, i was my hse cheerleading ic in sec sch ya.. ) so to other hses out dere, prepare to take a beating from OWENS!!!!!!!!!!!

realised tat im reali veri close wif songhoe ever since orientation.. in fact i tink tat he is the guy i trusted the most in class.. always positive n fun, he never fails to help one in times of trouble.. i do reali give my respect to him.. he is too my role model in life in a way.. he been through the darkest time in my stay in pj so far.. a guy tat understands u even though u dun feel like tolking abt it.. i believe he will becum a great father in future ( oops ) , i agree.. thz songhoe, u has been a great pal.. u allow me to appreciate sch life better..

well, abt today.. did morning duty.. got econ test today, so i stood up in the nite till to the morning to study.. so tired, but was in the rite mood to do duty.. so yar, i was with my classmates at a table, tieing my tie..

den i said :" haha i got morning duty today.. so glad tat the weather is so gd today.. sure wun hav hall duty today one..."

the morning announcement came in out of nowhere : " gd morning pioneers.. pls move toward to the hall for morning assembly.. i repeat, pls move toward to the hall for morning assembly"

k... yep, my friendz start to jack me.. thz a lot ya.. so now wad.. duty in hall.. wad the heck la.. !#!@^%!#@!(!)!#^!%$#$ i tried to calm myself down while walking toward the hall.. such a long journey, y cant they juz hav it in the parade square.. parade square = less walking ok, i was in hall liao.. manage to cool down.. den the bell rang.. the parade commander ( yong hao ) gave the command.. national athem played.. k, im not used to crowd.. so was looking around the hall to aviod minimal eye-contact.. all of the sudden, i manage to see songhoe ( btw he is quite tall, so it isnt hard to find him ) he was dere smiling at me.. den i giggle abit.. and wad, i lost my compose n cool.. felt so uncomfortable.. heck!!! y muz songhoe give tat MEGA ONE MILLION DOLLAR SMILE??? wan to go down n kick him.. but great power cums wif great responsibility.. i got a job to do.. said the pledge, wasnt tat gd though i tink.. went to find songhoe after assembly.. jump onto him at his back.. haha so funni n fun.. like horse galloping.. oops.. ( hope u didt see tis )

after econ lesson, we ask ask the leave mpr3 ( the lecture venue ) we like rushing out immediately coz the tcher wan to lock the room.. yar, n mr nice guy went to the other side of the room to off the aircon n light.. went i came out, the mpr3 was dark.. so the tcher thought i was the last guy.. she juz lock the room n we went off.. den i went to toilet to look for mr nice guy.. wasnt around.. hmmm.. someting fishy.. ask my classmates, they didt noe.. den sudden saw rui rong ran off den came back wif a key.. ran to mpr3 to unlock the door.. yar.. he was locked in the mpr.. haha.. well, in case u dunno, mr nice guy is songhoe.. he again.. -____-

haha.. sch life reali rox my life.. everyday is exciting n fun.. my life has indeed been colorful.. class, hi-5, council.. well, heard abt mr yeo's motivational tolk on cuming A level liao.. time to strive hard.. hmmm... looking forward for common test to end so can meet up wif hi-5 n nootka peepz.. yep, tml is the last day of PAE i tink.. hopefully the J1s enjoy their stay in pj.. tml is olso miss lee wedding.. haha our class ar attending it, will bound to give her a surprise.. had been feeling veri happy.. thx God for tat (: fav song is still palsm 23 ( chinese version ) a veri nice song.. kk.. got to study.. cya soon blog..