I've found a friend who died for me

common test continuing tml.. math n gp papers ar over.. left wif econ n phy.. spent the whole week studying these 2 sub, yet still doesnt feel veri confident abt tml econ essay test.. heck la, juz try my best n see howz my quality so far (though giving for best might still not be enough) the thoughts of me still taking chem came back.. by dropping chem last yr, my ambition to take up chemical engineering n following the footsteps of my father is over.. sometimes wheneva i look at my classmates how they handle their 4 subs, i was veri impressed.. was it becoz i lack of self-dicipline? chem wasnt veri hard actually n i DO like tat sub.. wateva, i will now focus n move toward to my goal of studying bisiness in NUS.. so far, i hav been always tinking tat im suitable for business.. the smart attire i hav to dress in, the important communicaion stressed during business deals wif clients, the many setbacks n failures i hav to face.. gee.. tis reali keep me tinking..

i hav been wondering on someting new.. ar we facing too much stress at our age, even for a teen?? looking back at the acheievements i had, rite from my sec sch life (im a bad boy in pri sch), i held many leadership roles.. class monitor to prefect to councilor.. hse cheerleader to cheerleader ic (hmm, irony isnt it?) choir sectional rap to the 1st male choir chairperson in guangyang sec history (oh, dun bother to ask me to sing.. i lost my ability to do tat since after orientation1) n now, council exco, gradnite in charge n many other more.. the roles of leader ar indeed a tough one (tough i take it quite lightly) im not trying to boast here, but tink of it, many of us get to feel the likes of the society 1st hand.. veri interesting but olso frightening.. politics, backstabbing, hypocritics on n on.. i often see su n excos of councils working veri hard in planning.. guess tat maturity n great deal of responsibility required.. esp when we hav to deal wif studies, duties n social relationships wif friends, family etc.. based on my working experience so far, i realised my style of working.. my performance ties closely wif my feelings, emotions.. wheneva im feeling mad or so, i tend to rush tings on impulse.. n wheneva im neutral or less moody, i could joke around, laugh, smile.. i too prefer working on building relationships before getting tings done.. like the orientation for example: i choose to build on purely relationships before going on to our clan cheer, flag or so.. i tink they agree wif tat ya.. haha, our clan flag wsa painted in 1hr (incomplete, tat y no so colourful) our clan performance was planned in abt 1 hr too? hehe.. n we played the most during ogl camp.. only clan to thon (if spelt rite) the last nite together (: n it reali pays off.. the most united clan.. Nootka, my pride..

yep.. went to sharin's og outing on last fri.. was veri reluctant at 1st, coz need to study (or lazy).. HEY!!! ITS AT EAST COAST U NOE!! yar, in the end, for unknown reason i was at east coast.. dun get fooled by the bbq pit no.. though bbq pit no 17 n 43 seems veri close (43-17=26), they ar in fact abt 1.5km away -____- luckily the large cup of iced milo from mac saved me from ending my journey to bbq pit 43.. phew.. n boy, i was reali impressed wif their og.. they ar still veri united till now.. though not everyone turned up, majority was dere.. get to noe many of the j1s too.. hehe.. out of the many j1s, one tat reali felt me a deep impression is yixian, the Dasen look-alike.. hehe.. interesting.. too bad i noe tis og ppl too late.. had fun all the way to 10pm n yet they were still reluctant to go.. (: yar i bet shahrin n yvvonne ar proud of them..

tink of it, i wonder how will my og be if im a ogl instead of clanmaster? who will i be pair up wif? hmmm.. veri interesting ya.. hehe.. im not sure will my og be as great as those in nootka, but i tink i lack of many tings tat nootka ogls possess: humor, syn-energy, enthu.. mayb i will crap all the way, mayb my partner will do all the job, mayb i might make them cry, mayb they will hate me.. arhh... I WAN TO BE A OGL!!! imagine the wonderful bonds u get to build wif the j1s.. it sort of excites me.. the yearnful looks shined on their faces.. the bes part is the finale of orientation where ur og members came to hug u, some wif tears on their faces, saying the thanks n appreciations they had for u.. hmmm.. no matter wad, i still appreciate the role i played as clanmaster during o1.. aiya, everytime say muz put orientation behind yet still dig n bring it out again.. sianz...

yep yep, back to reality, time to get back to study yar.. after common test i gonna play bball almost everdae.. hopefully the interhse sport competition applies for j2, so my class could join n enjoy the class bonding.. hmmm.. tat all fer now.. cya..