I've found a friend who died for me

times flies quickly.. n 1 week has passed.. pretty screwed up coz still got so much haven finish study.. well, tink im gonna go b to college to study almost everydae.. mayb tis is the best wae to stay focus..

a veri happening week.. 1st on 4th of june.. nootka ogl outing.. quite a high number turn up for the gathering despite orientation period is long over.. guess the bond we built up over the dec holidae didt vanish wif the spirit n mood of orientation.. 12 out of 17 supposed to turn up one.. but end up me, joseph, yixin, grace, marilynn, jiaxin, yuanxiao, caixiang, shahrin, jieyi turn up.. yonghao got high fever tat dae, songhoe got family prob, christine juz came b from pre-u sem while yvonne mia for a veri long time.. was long forward to tis outing, until songhoe n yonghao last min msg me tat they not cuming.. somehow demorailsed me ya.. went to al dente to eat, service wasnt as gd as it used to be but food not bad.. had al fungi.. yum.. though everyone sat together, i kinda felt someting is missing among us.. probably the enthu in us.. i dun feel tat energetic as i used to be.. after we left al dente for hagen-das, i was slience for the rest of the night.. i was troubled by the awakwardness among each other, as if im a stranger to them.. n i felt i did pull down the mood of the night.. everyone was like waiting for me to sae someting.. as if im still a clanmaster.. no, im not.. pls dun continue to see me as one.. we ar now friendz.. caixiang: thx for the heart to heart tolk tat night in the toilet.. to tink tat u used to always cum to me to share ur prob.. it turns out tat u were the one listening to me instead tat nite.. marilynn, sharhrin: thx for accompanying me to mac to hav a late supper.. had a gd chat wif ya too..

got council retreat on thur.. turn-out rate for the sentosa outing wasnt at gd.. but still enjoyed myself veri well at the beach.. still could remb i used to cum to the beach last yr at tis period of the yr wif the pylos family.. sentosa did has alot of major changes.. went to costa sand resort at east coast.. new learning exp tat dae.. get to experiment wif in-line skates.. uesd to tink it always same as ice-skating.. but somehow, they ar different in a wae.. still manage to pick it up quickly though.. fell once only tat dae in my palm despite wif the guards on my hands.. cost me dearly for tat.. almost went into the bbq pit too coz cant brake the skates.. phew.. if not roasted zhao.. veri fun dae too..

today.. went dancing for the summerdance fit ting.. went to sch early at 10am.. training till 12.. den lunch.. den we change n go to somewhere outside indoor stadium to perform.. veri disappointed wif the poor turn-out rate.. hav to admit.. program is veri boring.. the dae we were performing is dae 1.. got a bad feeling tat we where dere juz to fill up the empty dae 1 slots.. like decoys.. but wateva.. screwed up my dancing too.. the stage was slippery n i slip n miss a step.. den my injured hand due to the skating crash didt allow me to dance veri smoothly too coz i hav to freeze wif my hands.. veri painful but hav to endure.. went to subway to hav dinner n den to the basement under espanade to watch n learn some stuffs from the ppl breaking dere.. tink we learned quite alot n definately improving the dance step for the 9th of july performance at sentosa.. long wae to go..

i realised im some time surrounded by irritating ppl.. their presense dere doesnt help to improve the situation.. den their actions pissed me off.. im starting not to reserve my skeptical thoughts for such ppl in future..