im seriously feeling the 3 negative emotions now.. agitation, agony and depressed..
agitation: i dun know why am i feeling so vex recently.. mayb is my academic performance or so.. olso, im getting more sensitive toward more friends.. juz find wad ever they do irritating.. i hate those hypocites around me.. one moment critise abt a certain stuff, n next, they ar doing it.. cant explain the amount of agitation in me now.. it juz make me cant stay focus.. worst of all, i cant let go of them.. how i wish i could go to these people and yell off at them.. somehow, time is wasted in being gd to them.. and oh, i dun love to rant VULGUARITIES at others..
agony: i seriously hate myself for not able to perform well in my academic.. so how it became sort of a desperate attempt now.. prelims is juz abt 3 weeks aways and im now still NOT showing progress.. life is in a mess.. my personal life is screwed up, my relationships wif my parents and friendz are screwed up, studies ar screwed, level of tolerance is screwed.. i cant handle social relationships as gd as before.. where were the happy times i used to enjoy?? nah, they ar gone.. not to cum back..
depressed: feeling badly low.. no word to describe.. has been isolating myselves from ppl.. dun feel happy.. like a trash.. hate wad i am.. ARGGHH.. im losing control over myself..
...hating the veri existence of ur own,
how easy it is if u could just give in into your anger and fear...
