I've found a friend who died for me

ha, hav been back from brunei for almost 2 weeks plus, yet too lazy to update the blog.. so i decided to do abit of updating here to remove some dust from my personal corner..

brunei wasnt as tough as i thought.. thick veg n wet climax, but can get very hot at times too.. spent time at brunei for abt 21 days there.. life is pretty simple for the brunei ppl.. training was quite fun yet tiring.. learnt lots of stuffs there, like basic survial courses n nagvigating though rough terrain..

guess the most defining moment in brunei is the survial course.. we got to learn skills on how to survive in the forest if u ar stranded alone in it.. from building simple lodging to setting up traps to hunt for food like monitor lizards (yucks).. best of all is tat we got to witness the killing of quails, chickens n rabbits with bare hand.. no snake though (guess low budget to get it, the animals were obtained from farms) the rational of killing with bare hands is to train us to kill n hunt for food in case we ar left with nothing.. in additional, it is to give us a personal feel of killing a living creature, so tat we ar more ready to take a life in future if there is a need too.. well, everyone got a chance to kill at least a quail.. but the more "lucky ones" got to kill chicken n rabbit.. yep, some backed out of the killing.. its pretty interesting how the techniques were used to kill them.. for the quail, u hav to life them up by the wings den stroke them gently till they calm down.. den, out two fingers in btw their neck, twist n PULL.. quite gruesome n cruel, but it will be more cruel if u cant kill it in one try.. imagine someone was to be hung, but the rope snapped in the process n u hav to put him back into the process again.. so it is best to finish it quickly.. at least tat was what i told myself constantly in my mind before i was to kill one back then.. well the general lesson learnt was simple: in order for one to survive, another must die.. survival of one precceeds all human principles (roughly wad i could remember from the survial creed, tat we were told to recite before killing the animals)

before going back to brunei, i managed to do another combat jump.. tis means i offically completed my basic airborn course.. gee.. jumping is fun, but the trill mixed wif fear will always be there even it is ur first jump or number 1000 jump..

i believed it is more or less confirmed tat im in commando.. as in officially commando.. we went through a gruelling 10 months before we could earn the rights to recevie n wear the red beret while other units mainly got it within one month after the end of their bmt.. n tat doesnt mean u will still stay in commando.. some of us will still unfortunately get posted out, n more in future due to injuries.. haiz.. finally the red beret presentation is on tis coming fri, right after a 72km march.. gee.. it is going to be a very meaningful day in my life.. all the blood n tears sheded.. tis will be the day to be looked forward to..

kk, got to go back camp