initially i didt understand why cant the red beret be issued to us straight after bmt cause it is juz a matter of time before we become a part of the commando family and obtain the red beret.. however, after going through all these hardship, i finally understood why.. not many could withstood the hardship tat the training offers.. not because it is physically demanding, but more of metally demanding.. there ar many times where u juz keep telling urself to give up, go be some normal infantry will do.. often u find urself waging war with ur own mind.. greatest enemy not others but yourself.. indeed true..

i remember times where when i could juz couldt meet the chinup requirements for ippt or soc timing.. i kept motivating myself by telling myself tat i could do it.. but everytime when results do not show or tally with the efforts u put in, u get more depressed and affected each time.. as if it is juz some false hope.. finally when u got through tat, u got injured during the very 1st jump for ur airborne course.. another blow to ur morale when ur fellow coursematez graduate while u sit aside in clutches.. again n again, my mind n soul is tested over n over.. n gradually, it juz gets stronger over time.. to me, tat is what commando training really gave or impart me

cj n i kept complaining to one another abt how tough is training, n how much he wanted to give up.. ha, to think of it, both of us both our beret last fri.. time really flies.. from the day we enlist as recruits, to privates, den to corporals.. each of the process holds many memories..

well abit on my red beret cermony.. before going straight to the parade, we did a 72km route march.. took alot of toll on us.. many began with injuries and ended up with even more.. but im glad tat none of my company matez fall out from the march.. we started from 4pm on 25th oct to abt 4pm on 26th oct.. in total, abt one full day.. we were really shack out.. yet there was no time to rest.. we were supposed to march for 4km in 45min, rest for 15min, den move on again.. as always, the further u march, the more pain u feel, n slower u get.. muscles get tighter n tighter with every rest.. ouch.. haha, the funniest moment was the night part.. where everyone get tired n sleepy.. u get ppl who sleep n walk at the same time.. or facial expressions u never seen before.. wadeva the case, the long march was over only after walking from camp to east coast park, den walk up n down the full length abt 3 1/2 times den back to camp.. wad a killer..

right after we finished marching, we rested at the shed in camp to prepare for our parade.. the rest was yet only abt 15mins den we need to move off for the cermony.. we had only 5 mins to camo our face, carry our boats, n be ready at the gate by den.. everyone was limping around tat time due to the walk.. yet i think the parade took the pain off our mind..

when we reach the gate, the parade started.. the emcee asked the audience to turn their attention to the gate, tat where when we come in n steal the limelight..