I've found a friend who died for me

Im back to blogging after being pissed off by blogger for nearly 2 months i think.. i hate the fact that the auto save thing for draft dun work well all the time.. everytime when im almost done typing the post, the browser juz get cranky n closes.. n it does not juz happen once..

watever the case, i had started working as a temp.. A shipping company at Concourse, called Swire.. The sg branch got a history of about 30 over yrs, but the parent company itself has been around for 200 plus yrs.. so in a way quite a reputable company..

to think of it, im pretty lucky to be able to work in this company.. i do not hav any work experience (unless u consider working in a shop as volunteer or 2 yrs of ns) and with only A lvl cert.. i was looking for a temp job to kill time since i got abt at least 7 months before uni admission.. i was among the 1st to enter ns for my batch, so ord-ed early.. that time I was looking every where for a suitable job that could cater to my preferrence: abt 8 hrs a day, pay abt 1.2k & no working days on weekend.. but shortly after ord, the crisis started to hit the economy, so quite hard to find one gd job..

initially, i almost got into recruit express as hr recruiter, but eventually rejected for not being "chatty" enough.. den i started looking into newspaper.. wanted to try working in retail or f&b cause get to move around alot n socialise with different ppl.. however, pay very low n working hour very long.. by some chance, i found swire ad in newspaper.. tried applying, but did not receive any news after that.. it was only abt 1 month later, i received a call from them for interview.. haha, to think i was already very desperate over looking for a job.. ever since ord, i have been surviving on my own saving, pay for my own insurance n saving policies.. somemore, i called yewting in the afternoon tat day to ask he got any catch for job.. was intending to follow him for the singtel promoter interview.. glad the call came tat day..

went for interview the next day.. was almost late cause the interview was after the singtel one.. cant find the lift that reaches the company floor.. barely made it on time though.. was very surprised to see so many caucasians working in that place.. only through the interview den i knew that it was actually a big british shipping company.. had an interview which doesnt feel like one.. the interviewer, sylvia (my current boss) explained the job scope n assumed tat Im going to join the company.. pay was uber gd (1.4K, above my expected range) at 1st sylvia was expecting 2 people to turn up for interview, after cutting down the list to me n a hwa chong guy.. but the guy backed up last min, so in the end yew ting the job instead.. lucky ass.. also, the new ad i was last time in the paper was actually meant for recruiting perm staff, so somehow the company needed temp staff, n im in now

so ended up in swire now as admin related temp staff, but work we do is like what a perm staff does... we were in charge of a project, attended countless meeting with managers, conference meetings with oversea.. so i learned alot from my stay in the company.. the contract ending at end of tis month, but im going to extent to june.. impossible to finish the project within my contract term.. i dun think i will wan to leave before my work is done too.. i was very grateful to Sylvia n Percy (my other boss) for being very kind n patience toward me n yt, so dun wan to let them down.. however, the extention going to cost me to miss the special term for ntu in may.. still wondering if i could cancel the term n join the regular july intake..

gonna take a week leave too next month cause going for church's missionary trip in thailand.. going to some student centre over there to teach them languages n organise day camp.. hope everything will go on smoothly n learn alot from tis trip since its my first missionary trip.. gonna be baptised too before leaving for thailand, so next month going to be quite happening..

i love my job, my bosses, the working environment.. but recently, been feeling very tired.. the current phase of the project is going to be one of the driest part whole of the whole thing.. waged constant wars with the Zzz monsters, esp after lunch.. but still time passes quickly, n the weekend is near again (:

i have been spending alot more time with God n church related issues.. joined by the church choir, attended more of fellowship activities n even prayer nights now.. closer with the church peepz too.. probably because the christmas play in dec that bring all of us together.. in fact, im actually enjoying myself very well now n happy abt it (:

ying came n returned back to aus, same for mel (though her stay was shorter n almost non-existant to us) ya, but we understood ur difficulties, so its okay ya.. juz next time bring more goodies from europe, like BRANDED clothes for example n not juz some CHUPA CHUPS gotten from airport.. gotten to spend more time with ying since her return from auz.. thought tat it would be very weird initally since we kinda had a major disagreement months before her return.. intestingly, things still went on as per normal.. thanks for not being mad with me ya.. did crazy n stupid things as we use too.. haiz.. missed those jc times..

yes yes, this might be the countless time i mentioned, but i missed schooling.. for the gals who went on studying immed after A's, u ppl wun understand how we guys feel.. really looking forward to uni (: but damn, what with all the crazy deaths in my beloved ntu? one attempted murder n another sucide.. watever the case, im going to mech eng, hopeful not gonna to affect me alot..

hav been thinking alot for past weeks.. u dun know y but im like suddenly thinking abt my love life during jc days.. maybe the 2 yrs time in ns does hav an adverse effect.. im like constantly think of her recently, work, play n even during in my slp.. as if its stalking me.. looking back, i was juz a j2 doing my job as orientation leader n she as freshie.. we were introduced to each other through various means.. dunno why did i gave up on the relationship when it was going to well.. valentine was coming n ppl already assumed we were already together.. it was a mutual interest.. yet, somehow, the me at that time screwed it up n wanted to be single.. until now, i still couldt understand why did i made tat move.. the worse thing is tat we did not make a clean "breakup", so everything was very blury.. my time in dance was probably to get nearer to her, but ironically, when she was there, i juz cant approach her.. juz something in me tat holding back.. thought tat i could try after A's, but too weird to ask her abt it again since i let her down in the 1st place.. now she is doing well (i hope) n the least i could do is to wish her the best n pray for her..

pls dun ask me abt tis as im having a headache over tis issue.. probably because my sis got a bf, den got me thinking abt it.. kinda proud of her to be able to get a gd looking, sporty guy instead of some geek.. well, i hav no worries since she told me tat he already hav plans for the future n i believe he will treat her well.. well, he BETTER do.. (: gonna press my sis to intro him to me one day..

k, gonna slp liao.. tis post is like crap, so much on the mind, but cant pen down nicely.. heck, gonna wake up like in 5 hrs time for work.. great tat tml is FRIDAY.. going for driving lesson n meet cj n xin after tat..