I've found a friend who died for me

Finally completed the past yr papers for math.. Helped alot in the understanding of the topic.. Thought i would struggle with this since i didnt get to practice much.. Confidence level up by one.. 2 more days to start of exam.. If im able to keep up with my pace, maybe i will be able to pull it off somehow.. just that i still need more time for practices..

Room and table are in a mess.. I lost track of time.. It's just paper after paper.. The sun goes up and down.. If i were this consistent with my work for the whole sem, maybe i wun be in such a tight spot..

It can get kinda lonely at night.. When gr is always not in room and out studying with shiling.. It's just me and tons of books and papers piled up before me.. Sometimes, it could even be depressing too.. I just lock myself in the room for whole day and sat by the study table.. The mind too will occasionally drift off to unpleasant and unhappy thoughts..

What is love?? What is the difference btw friends, btw a mother and a child, btw siblings, btw a man and a woman, or even btw man and God? What is true love?? What is love at 1st sight?? Of cause, there is no love greater than God.. But, it can get pretty confusing in the midst of everyday life.. What is right and what is wrong??? What is absolute? They are just so puzzling.. What is trust and who to trust?? Those that u think u can totally surrender and entrust end up up disappointing the most.. To listen or to patronize? Which is which?? To be there or not?? When your presence or comments does even make a difference.. I hate it when i have to preach abt something that i myself dun even believe or do.. It is so frustrating to be a person who ponders and think so much where nothing can be done.. Why do i get myself so upset thinking about it when its all over? or it didnt even begin in the 1st place.. It just gets depressing to think abt it.. Nothing is eternal in this world.. What do i believe and uphold?? Lord, grant me strength..

Let me tide over this darkness so that I could go somewhere far away.. somewhere the mind can find true peace and tranquility.. somewhere your pasts and bondage are unable to catch up with you..

Arghh.. I need more optimism.. If I could just buy that

Yes, isolation.. It is only the best and most effective way..